naranara

2007-09-21T23:49:00.000-07:00

hey guys, i've moved to http://nuraseelah.livejournal.com =)

i guess it's goodbye blogger, hello eljay. link me up-

2007-09-19T09:38:00.000-07:00

things will change, soon..

if you have not known alr, my line had been temporarily cut off. yea, bummer..if its been hard for you to contact me, think abt how hard it has been for me to contact everybody else..oh well, i'm getting use to it alr..like how i'm getting use to this fasting month

good news, good news, good news...well for me at least. i'll be getting a new phone soon! yeahh..its abt time la..

&& i'll be going KL again soon! even tho for only a few days, we alr plan not to sleep for the whole weekend =)) hoho, alr got me so excited..

all this and i still have enough money to spare for my next month expenses, pay for my previous KL trip and my hp bills..and then i'll be broke..ha, well at least all that will be paid for, and i'll have lesser things to worry abt..

i guess it pays off to work almost 6 days a week for the past few weeks..and did i tell you i have the BEST JOB EVER?? yes, i just LOVE my job..i've been working almost everyday and i still have not gotten sick of the place yet..ha sorry guys, nomo vacancy tho =P

i'm gonna be loaded by the end of the month, before i burn it all of cos..call me money-minded, i care less..cos it makes me happy =D

anw yes i will get an lj soon alright

2007-09-14T11:24:00.000-07:00

KL photos, finally here.. =)

looking back, the trip was actually worth it all..miss KL so much la..one more time guys?

2007-09-12T10:03:00.000-07:00

one thing aft another. bummer.

the day was fine, really..until i came home aft work. went to check my timetable, nth new..sux bigtime..seriously sp, it's not funny anymore..it never has been, fuck CLS..and then i found out that i've been seperated from my other classmates, what luck. and yar, hayati has to forward module, that means i won't be able to see much of my beloved classmate anymore. fuck.

and then i found out that my beloved aunt has brain tumour. and nth else matter as much anymore..now i regret not trying to get back to her for the past few days when she's been trying to contact me. all thx to my fucked up line. so tell me, what am i to say to her now? how do i tell her that i wish her well, that i hope everything will be fine, that she should be strong and know that i love her and i never want to lose someone so special in my life..how do i tell her all that?

i know everything will be fine. or i'll just make believe

2007-09-09T07:11:00.000-07:00

CLIMB-ON!

yea climb-on 2007 is over..and another accomplishment for me. but i still feel like i din really do sp proud. and i'm so sorry, really..

after this comp, i finally got my motivation to start training again..but just too bad, too many things are getting in my way..well at least it kinda pays to work at a place related to my growing passion

talking abt work, i've been working ever since i got back from KL, and i'll be working everyday till next friday. and i've yet to pay back the hours of sleep i owe myself since i got back..then again, it is kinda worth it, when the money keeps coming in =)

a few days ago, i start regretting not getting alot of things from KL but then i realise i'll be going there again next month, but this time with my campus friends. ha, so i guess i'll be burning my money again this time..damn.

oyar congrats to everyone who joined climb-on and those who won..esp hakeem, this year is your year dude. and the dyno queen, the record holder, jinli! =)

and to SPRC, stay strong as one man..cos it seems like we're not. and this didn't come from me

i feel bad for what i've done, and i don't know how to change this but just so you know, i don't hate you

and i'm sorry

2007-09-03T07:41:00.000-07:00

back

KL was ok if u ask me..highlight of the whole trip was the climbing itself of cos

camp5 was awesome. nth like i imagined it to be, the reason that got me speechless at my 1st view of the whole place..and i achieved quite alot from climbing over at camp5, finishing my project route, the free-falling from the top of the fucking high highwall..the experience was uncomparable..but i'm sorry to say, bouldering was still the best..and now, you can't say that i didn't try..

the only thing i miss abt the whole trip is camp5..oh yar and the shisha..and the hailam chicken rice..and the late nights playing burnout! hah, ok so i do miss alot more things..

overall, i can't really say i enjoyed the whole trip. cos a few things had my mood turned off..and it wasn't like how i thought it would be, but it doesn't matter now, cos its over..

i need time to recover from all this. and i've made a decision, a decision i might regret now, but not in the future..cos i know it's the right thing to do..

oth than that, i'll be gg on a hiatus
but i'll be back soon

2007-08-26T04:13:00.000-07:00

falling into place

what a pity, i wasn't able to catch the so called "climb-oxx" last week due to the staff trg we had to attend at CA..it would be fun to see so many pple trying out my routes..but at least we all get to try out the routes the next day..and i have to say, it was nice to just keep climbing without having to ask for routes at all, really..
anw hope the rest enjoyed the comp and the routes

and to aishah, be patient and have faith k babe..hopefully everything goes on well between the two of u :) and yes i'll take a video thr just for u

and i noe jups wun be reading this, but anw, thx alot jups! you're the best! now i can finally go KL without having to worry abt money =D

and to everyone else, enjoy your hols

2007-08-22T10:49:00.000-07:00

hello hols..

yes my exams are over and its finally time for me to enjoy...

the hols have barely started and it's alr been filled up with so much activities, with 70% of it being work of cos..but before all that i'll be setting my mind free for one week in KL. tho i bet it's gonna be with the wrong crowd..but well oh well, i will have fun..the time has finally come for me to finally take a break and finally enjoy..like finally...cos its been one hell of a long torturing time in sch..

and yess, climb on! is coming up..so what are u waiting for, go register now! visit www.climb-asia.com to find out more =) and if u're in SPRC, don't u dare tell u're not joining..happening on the 8th and 9th of sept @tamp, it's gonna be a climbing carnival u just can't miss, take my word for it

ok and as for trgs, i have to get something planned out for u girls..and since i will only be free on mons and tues, thr's a high chance of it happening on one of those days or both..hopefully shikin would be able to take another day..so girls, i noe its the fasting month and all, but be prepared for some harsh intensive trgs =)) if u make it throughout the whole month, i promise u'll come out a better climber. heh

my secret garden

2007-08-11T12:33:00.000-07:00

Singapore is not so crime-free afterall

ok i'm not suppose to be blogging but wth..i need to let this out, really..

do you know, that every single night there's loads of cases on fights all over singapore, and most of them include pple getting injured or even killed? i know..cos my bro was one of them. but thk god he's fine now..

ok so i was working ytd..and it was much much better than last week. cos i guess pple just don't feel like climbing ytd..after that climbed one route at the high wall, and went to head home. was planning to take a nap before studying..

but..someone called my eldest bro at ard 8 plus..and i heard him shouting, and i thought he was just quarrelling with his friend. then he came out of his room and said, "call mom, tell her wan[my 2nd bro] got admitted into hospital"

when i asked him what happen he said, "he got beaten up with a parang in ochard" and i panicked.
fuck la who won't sia..

went to SGH by myself by the NEL cos my parents were outside and my bro tumpang his fren's bike..by the time i reach, everybody else was there..kecoh sekejap. heard so many stories, i myself dun noe which want to believe..

but then found out he was with his gf. and his gf said he got beaten up in front of lucky plaza. like wtf, 8pm infront of lucky plaza?? and she even said tt nobody went to help my bro. if she's a liar, she's not a very good one is she?

and guess what, after that she was at the lobby talking on the phone, laughing aloud..and you said you were too dumbfounded to help my bro just now? fuck you, i'll eat you alive if i found out u lied, bitch. and i pray hard that those fuckers who beat my bro up will rot in hell. oh u don't know how much we're wishing u're dead by now. and we'll never stop wishing..

and all this happen because my bro accidentally bump into that fucker with the parang. wad a coincidence?? damn. seriously, i hope those pple will get wad they deserve..cos they sure cause us a whole lot of trouble.

but thkfully my bro is fine now. the parang hit the back of his head and his back..oth than the stiches, he's fine. hopefully ah..

for one second i thought i lost him

pray for my bro ok =/

2007-08-09T10:12:00.000-07:00

holy crap

hai, i finally see the need to start getting things done. and yes, i realise how ****ed up i am right now. and if i continue to keep this up, i would end up regretting in future..god knows, i just might be beating myself up for this.

its abt time i start taking things seriously. actually its kinda too late, with so much of overdued assignments, exams next week, work this weekend..ahhhhh i'm freaking out!

*deep breaths*

whatever it is, i'm gonna make it work. so in the mean time, no bloggin, no climbing, no tv, no entertainment..except for music of cos, how can i ever live without it..

anw today was so unexpected. but it was really nice to see all of them again after all this while..i really miss those days we had =/

and i still have to decide on whether i should go to KL with the SPRC pple or not, by tml! crap. i. can't. decide. ahh.

ok short of time, with a long list rolling down to my feet. its all up to me now =/

ps: if thr is a need to contact me, pls call my num ok, don't msg..cos i can't rply back :(

2007-08-05T08:57:00.000-07:00

no fireworks :(

haha..ok so we plan to catch the fireworks at esplanade on sat..but thr wasn't any :( but IS OKAYY..the night was lovely nonetheless..except for the part where my head was spinning and i couldn't breathe for a moment as if i got asthma attack..haha! was so worth it =)

anw the earlier part of the day was disastrous..my first day working and shafii just had to oversleep till 1pm, when he was supposed to be working with me at 10am..then philips had to give me a crashcourse and left me to handle everything :/ was super scary esp when he said that if i not sure of anything, just write it down on a paper..wth! as if the paper can ans my questions...but after shafii came, things start to settle down..phew! and thx zhenhui for bringing me my lunch :)

just hope that next week would be better

well, everything else seems to be fine and dandy except for my studies :( but i promise i'll work on it

2007-08-01T10:21:00.000-07:00

it must be the moon

do u noe that the moon affects alot of things on this earth, like the tides, ur emotions, etc etc..well tts all that i actually learnt from my GEMS module this sem. confem fail la..hai, even GEMS also cannot pass..losing hope alr..HAIIII must be the damn moon!

well at least my ICAs are over. can relax for a while before mugging for the exams..and i climbed today! :)) today's climbing session was fun. cos i got back my fingerstrength and my locking power! woohoo! i swear i'll get back my fingerkillerstrength during the hols..thats one goal for this coming hols..and another one is to work my ass off and pay off my bill and go shopping. that is, if i got some money to spare..

therefore, i have come to a conclusion that i am not gg to camp5! one because its fasting month, and two, because i wanna work..its been so long since the last time i work la~

that reminds me, i'm working this sat, finally...ha, and after that watching the simpsons movie :))))))) cant wait..

and i realised.
i found out today that we girls tend to overthink things alot and keep having wrong ideas and insist that it's true..hai, even i have the wrong ideas too many a times. and now it caused me this..and i don't know who's advice i shud take..

mybe i shud just stop thinking from now on

who am i to you?

2007-07-27T09:02:00.000-07:00

its my lucky not so lucky day

somebody made my day today, and the same person took it all away..

i just had to screw it all up..and after hearing what she has to say, it almost had me. now i dont know what to think anymore. damn, im done whining..shit happens. life goes on..

i went home straight after climbing today as the rest went to eat at clementi. first of all, cos i need to save the transport money and secondly, cos i wasn't in the mood. and i kinda broke down on the way home. after all these years of keeping everything to myself, i just felt that i couldn't do it anymore. suddenly i just wish for a hug to make me feel better. but then again, shit happens. i've managed to handle it all the time, and i promise myself i will never give up.

btw i miss shikin alot..all i could wish for right now is to have my climbing partner back, alot of free time, some good music and my dearest rockgym. cos thats all i need to forget about everything else..i just miss the old times we had terribly ):

and then i saw these two bapoks when walking otw home. hot sekali! i was so close to snorting out loud. hai, these are the little things i use to cheer myself up (:

i'll be fine

2007-07-25T09:26:00.000-07:00

a post for u, dear

as suggested by aishah, i shall blog today..this post is for u dear. haha

ok first of all, comments on the new rockgym! ok its not new but changes have been done to it, and i love it now! haa, thats what i always say..but i really love the new structure. credits to gary and sons. haha

finally got to climb today. but i didn't really climb much though. well, at least i ran! and i ran alone, cos the weather was just nice and i didn't want to waste any time. woo, semangat. sorry zhenhui, next time k. anw as i said, i didn't climb much. i actually gave more routes then i climb. but its ok..i love giving routes :)

oyar btw i was wrong..i actually have 3 quizzes this week, and another 3 the week after. im dead la ok. i gave up halfway studying for today's quiz. cos after reading the notes, i realise i don't have a clue of what the chapters are about. well, this is what happens when u sleep during lectures. damn u nura! argh. i almost gave up on the test too, i just tikam for the last few questions. hai.

ok got another quiz on friday. and i think its gonna be worse. cos i never pay attention for this module. one, because i can never get what the hell the china lecturer is saying. two, because i never learn anything from the other lecturer. and three, because i don't have any of their notes. and now, im screwed.

but its ok. i have the whole of tml to figure everthing out. though i might most probably give up halfway, but i am going to try. god help me

i want to go camp5!!! but i'm broke. and my parents are broke too. my mom earns 10 bucks a day for god's sake. i seriously need a job. but i don't think i would be able to cope with everything. esp when my studies are in this state. im desperate man. i have even tried selling cookies at my mom stall ok..

work it out, nura..work it out!!

if only i could climb to destress. too bad i have no time for it. just too damn bad..

and how stupid can i be, to take that risk on myself.
can i give up now?

2007-07-20T11:06:00.000-07:00

lets start blogging weekly

i just realise how hard it is to get back the self-discipline in me. i guess im just too weak to go against my heart. and you're all to blame.

ok so im trying something out. and i'm not sure if it's gonna be any better, but i just have to try. cos i think it's my only way out of this right now. and yes, i'm gonna work on it..

but good news is, i'm finally putting in more effort in my studies. and it shows

for the 1st test for LMBS, i got 17/50 :(
and as for the second test, i got 34half/50! :)
hah, ok im just so proud of myself. it shows that i can do it if i really want to..

ok so i will be having 2 tests next week, and another 2 the week after. and if i really want to pass it all, it means no climbing for me..haa, ya right! with the new arrangement of tiles on the wall, there's no way i'll be able to stay away from climbing, unless i sprain my ankle or something =X

had our spring cleaning today. but its not finished yet, due to the unfinished work on the wall. heard they'll be overnighting in sch on monday to finish it all up. if only i could too..

nahh, my bed is way more comfy then the crashmats in the rockgym :)

hmm, let me see..which day should i climb on next week?
weds!~

2007-07-14T06:02:00.000-07:00

yeay. new job :)

yes. i got myself a job at climbasia. its a job come true actually. feel like i'm working at my dreamplace. the new climbasia is awesome..its not really done tho. cant wait to see it when its fully functional.

alr started working on friday. helped out to clean the new place up. was really fun, working with zhenhui and ayuni..and they even provide free food and drinks. seriously a job come true la :))

i just cant wait to work more. how i wish my school hours are a little bit more reasonable..then only will i get to work on more days. damn sp.

ok so i've been spending a little bit of time working on my self-discipline. and im gonna force myself to stay away from my dearest rockgym as much as i could. been saying that alot, but i'll make sure this time, i meant it.

study and work. that's all that matters now.

still contemplating if i should climb on tues or not..hmm

2007-07-11T10:06:00.000-07:00

i love SPRC, i love teamwork!

yes finally poly50 is over. we did, well, good, if u ask us..got position number 27. hah. and its kinda an accomplishment, since we had one man down :))

even before the whole thing started, we alr had so much hiccups. and yes, we did have hiccups during the comp. seriously, i felt like dying during the comp itself. i didn't eat anything before that and my legs started aching like hell. and then finding out that we had one man down? haa. didn't think we would be able to make it.

but we did!! haha, so so proud of everyone, zhenhui, jinli, hans, idris, iman, jay, wayne, sean and don. we did great man! u guys rock!

and my legs didn't stop aching until after i started climbing. weird. climbing rocks la~

ok now the sad part. realise i need to spend lesser time on rockclimbing. cos i failed 3 of my papers so far. damn. still trying to manage my time. still trying....where have my self-discipline gone to? hai

ok legs starting to ache again. chao, off to bed.

2007-07-07T06:56:00.000-07:00

it sounds easy. "just get over it"

bummer. cos i can't. i tried. i did everything. but i can't.

and i wish and i pray that one day they'll just understand..

all i feel like doing now is give it up and cry. cos this hopelessness truly hurts.

2007-07-04T09:26:00.000-07:00

all gone

ok had a bad start to my day today. was an hour late for practical in the morning due to the late night mugging..and my contact lens are giving me problems again. ok so its abt time i get a new pair but of cos, there's a little problem..i cant' afford one :( damn.

yes its that time of the month again. when my whole family is broke. and everything seems to go wrong in the hse. its hell. and pple out there, i'm sorry if u have to keep hearing this, but yes, im broke yet again

and now, i've even lost my motivation to do anything, studying, running, even climbing..yes, climbing..have not been doing real climbing for 3 days alr. and there goes my intensive training. i've even lost my motivation to eat proper meals and doing my tension sets at home..

hai, gone, all gone..

see, good things never last. and i speak the truth.
oh well, i will get it all back soon enough. just gotta work on it..allez nura!

anw climbapricks was a success. and now time for climbaprixxx? haa, hopefully i'll get my motivation by then. and i still wanna watch hide and seek..but that might have to wait till next week, since im gg sentosa with my mates this weekend and plus i have another quiz next week. cos one thing is for sure, i don't wanna flung anymore of my tests..in fact, i'm gonna try to ace it all now. so say byebye to intensive training. time for studies.. :)

and yes i cannot live a day without going to the rockgym.

cos life's like this

2007-06-30T23:47:00.000-07:00

TRANSFORMERS!

woo. watched transformers with the whole bunch of them on sat at lido. was awesome. the movie was quite long but i still feel tt it was too fast. or mybe im just too slow. haha. wadever it is, it's nice..go catch it, pple!

i actually went to library @ ochard to study with zhenhui before the movie. haha, but was super sleepy tho, so...yar. aft the movie we went to bugis to eat and then went to play pool at paradize mall. all 8 of us have to squeeze inside gary's (dad's) car..and tt guy just have to make a wrong turn and detour all the way back to ochard to look for a parking space. hah. thx ah dude.

was planning to go back ard 12+ since its sat and i thought the last train would be quite late. but at 11.50, ayuni's mom was nagging at her, asking her to go home, so i accompany her back since i only live like 1 station away from her. and guess what, we actually caught the last train home! hah. so so thkful to ayuni's mom!

and and i'm happy to say tt my curfew has already been extended to 1am! haha, cos i have been reaching home aft 12 and my mom didn't say a word. whoopie!

oyar the AGM on friday was awesome! the videos were hilarious. thx to bird azhar gary hatta and azim. cool shit la. i'll upload it if i get the chance to..

ok i've enjoyed enough for the weekends. now back to school :(

2007-06-26T07:40:00.000-07:00

stress under MST?

ehh, nope! thk god my sch doesn't have MST :))

pity those who does have MST tho. study hard guys..and stop saying its not fair, cos i went through the same thing before the hols ok. heh.

ok so pple are studying hard for their MST and what is my grp doing? playing cards during the break, laughing our hearts out till the other end of the foodcourt can hear us. apoligies for that, everybodeh. and i did have fun, reliving our first year, not caring abt anything else but the game. hohoho.

oh well. it won't be long until the next test. so there's actually nothing much to celebrate now. hai. its ok man, lets just live for the moment! hah, ok im just in my good mood. mybe becos i can have my late night today as my class start at 12 tml? mybe..(wee~)

still in search for a job now. and i am having second thoughts of working at fish & co. but i'm still applying for it tho..well lets just hope i could get the job at climbasia (plsplspls) cos i seriously need the money man :(

sch is starting to settle down now. but there's still seems to be so much to do. with the poly 50 training, year 1 training and my own training..and now i regret joining poly 50. argh. i hate running man..hai, its ok, i will be benefiting from it, i will..i dont think we could win tho =X oops.

seriously having fun in sch and after sch right now, i just have to say. lets just enjoy this moment till it ends. cos i just know it will..

MEMORY GAME ANYONE?? =D

2007-06-22T09:01:00.000-07:00

hello :)

i finally get to blog again. whoopie! =_=

been having a whole lot of activities for the past week. and boy, am i tired..holidays? haa, i actually went back to sch for 4 outta 5 days..

last monday, i finally get to meet my long lost fren, nadia..its so cool, the fact that we have been frens for like what, 14 years? yup i first got to know her when i was in kindergarden :)) and i am so glad that we still manage to stay in contact after all these years. after that drop by in sch for a while before meeting my classmates at brendan's condo for a bbq. was kinda ex, actually very ex since i didn't get to eat much. but its ok..

on tuesday, went to gary's hse again. hah, actually wanted to climb in sch but carene wanted to go, so wth..didn't climb much cos his tiles are still so rough to me. so painful la, my poor fingers..we actually did alot of stoning instead of climbing. went to meet hatta at al'ameen aft that to eat. but i didn't eat. ho. cos im broke :(

and for the rest of the week, we had the girls' training conducted by shikin, wan and me. the turn out was bad. but at least its much easier for us. heh. the training was quite successful ah. thx to wan. couldn't have done it without him. thx wan!

and yes i manage to train myself too this time. did alot of running and tension sets. and manage to do tough routes with mr johnny boy (johnathon, haha) on thurs. he actually told me that he felt embaressed when he see me climb, but i think he didn't realise how farking strong he is now la. haha. it was a nice bouldering session tho.

slept over in sch on that day with zhenhui and hans cos i didn't want to be late for training today. and yes, i did have a peaceful night rest on the crashmat. and after training today, we went to climbasia to climb. and i did some cool roof routes. thx again to wan. haha. but didn't climb much tho cos my skin is slowly tearing :(

and due to all that climbing and sets, its no wonder my whole body is aching like mad. and now i just wish for shikin's massage. hai.

tml, we'll be watching bornfire at esplanade!! so looking forward to it. its a fireshow, where the worldclass pros will be performing..ya'll hafta catch it man. haa. its happening today, tml and sunday night (not quite sure of the time tho)

ok. back. aching. cant. take it. got. to go. ahhh.

chao.

2007-06-16T10:46:00.000-07:00

another day wasted :(

was suppose to go study today with zhenhui and ayuni. supposedly meeting them at little india at 1. i woke up at 12, feeling lazy to get up. so msged both of them and none rplied. and so i went back to sleep! haha, cos had the feeling those two were still soundly asleep..and yup, i was right.

in the end, ayuni couldn't meet us. and i met rachel at little india at 3.30? haa. ok so the 1st plan was ruined. and the 2nd plan was to go sch study, then take our climbing stuffs and go meet gary to run from his hse to east coast. and that plan too got ruined. haha, cos it was raining. so in the end, we didn't go sch and we didn't run..we just went to gary's hse to study, watch movie and climb. haha. had fun tho..after that gary picked azhar, hakeem and his gf up to go eat at bedok's corner.

and otw home in the car, i felt like vommiting cos of gary's driving plus i didn't eat anything for the day. haa, bluek~ and thx, azhar for making fun of me. i shud have just vommited in ur helmet instead. haha.

ok we decided not to go climbasia tml cos its fathers' day and plus i spent my money on dinner at bedok's corner just now. and i have to take a break from gg out everyday.

and shit, i forgot. still have to embroidery the towel for teha darling's brother's engagement. damn, so much to do, so little time..argh.

2007-06-14T10:39:00.000-07:00

im just happy to know, really =))

and i cant help believing what u said, ayuni..and i am still smiling =)) haha. just so u know, thats just something i've been wanting to hear. and i'll try ok..

okok. enough of that.

lets blog :)

the fishing trip 2 days ago was a disaster in terms of the fishing part. haha. cos we caught no fish :( hahaha, but its ok otherwise..we played so many games la. and we even went to look for matilda's hse. spooky! i like! i seriously wanna go get a closer look. next time, next time!

we stayed there till morning and caught an early bus back to hougang. all of us were starving la but sadly, we northeast pple couldn't think of any 24hrs coffeeshop nearby to go to. sorry la ok..and in the end, we went to boon keng to eat. hah. good enough.

almost all of us went back to sch to sleep after that. haha. epidermic knockout. wanted to go home and sleep but i promise aishah i would run with her. i got only 90 minutes of sleep but i still manage to climb and run =)

my bro's gg off for ns tml..that means i will be left with only my little brudder. since both of my brothers will be gone for ns. so yeay! no more fighting for TV and computer. but boo..cos i have to do all the hsework. hai.

finally meeting my long lost fren on monday. im broke but i just wanna catch up with her so badly. and then off i go for the class outing on the same day. bbq! and the rest of the week will be our intense trainings :( i hate short holidays!

and i have yet find the time to look for a job and do my reports.

stop wasting time nura!!

2007-06-12T00:06:00.000-07:00

i had this dream

this lovely dream..didn't wanna wake up from it but sadly, i did.
how i wish it will come through, that that very dream will be true.

but all the wishing has to end.
exactly like how that very dream end.

it was afterall, just a dream..

can't believe i was careless enough to leave my phone when i left. and because of that i wasted my 2 hrs. and thk god for the pouring rain and the bloody sunshine. ok got 3 hrs to sleep before i have to meet them for the fishing trip to punggol. lets just hope god will be on my side later on.

knock some sense into me please?

2007-06-09T09:25:00.000-07:00

found myself a new family :)

SPRC!! :) have been spending so much time recently with the SPRC members, it feels like we're a family! realised i've been seeing them like what, everyday? hah, nope, not joking..been seeing them everyday ever since e-learning week..hai, i love them all, really..

oh btw the holidays are here! but its a super short wan. and i dun think i'll be enjoying it that much..hai, got 4 reports and 1 assignment to do man! argh. but its ok..2 weeks is long enough. that is, if i don't climb that much. hai, seriously have to manage my time man. help?

ok so the fishing trip is confirmed. tues 7pm (meeting place tbc). and we'll be having training camp for the girls from 19 - 22 june. and this tues and weds still have to go sch and open the gym for the year ones' level one. hai. its ok, anything for them ;)

oyar today's dairyfarm trip was super fun. though i wasn't in my best condition, i still get to try some routes. and yes, i did manage to scratch my knee :( now i have another booboo on my leg..hahaha..then went to eat at kembangan after that. now i'm damn full la..thx guys for the food! love u guys la~

ok shit. just rmbred i'm suppose to contact my lecturer ytd for that prac i missed. and im suppose to inform my classmate too. ah damn, im so dead :(

ok chao, i'm tired..

2007-06-06T08:49:00.000-07:00

FOOD :))

food makes me happy! =)) wanna thk zhenhui and ayuni for all the food they have been bringing me..love u guys man! muahmuah..and i love u too, my climbing partner :) i knew u would have brought some food for me if u have any..muahmuah

hah ok so i got over that problem. and i'm gonna go find a job at fish&co as soon as i got the time to..and all the freaking tests will be over by friday..wee~

feel super good today :) i finally went to jog after like what, 2 months? and it felt super good, really..feel like jogging again tml. heh.

AGM this friday.

and i think i cant make it :( hah, i got class till 6, and i seriously don't wana skip any more of my lessons..hai, but don't think i've got a choice :(

Dairyfarm on sat.

hopefully carene's driving..heh. looking forward to spending more time with them!

Fishing trip!

still planning..but most prob will be on next tues..hopefully it goes as planned. and hopefully got transport too! then we can go anywhere we want, anytime! haha. hopefully :) anybody interested tag at my tagboard ok (ps: for sprc members only) heh.

SPRC! at pumpfest

haii, we rock la :)

2007-06-03T19:04:00.000-07:00

friendster sux

argh, stupid friendster won't let me log in. since when did i become an invalid user sia?! arghhhhh!!wadever la. who needs friendster anw..

my weekends was tight due to pumpfest. the comp started on friday and ended ytd. its was tiring, the screaming and cheering and all..but it was all worth it. and i have to say, i'm proud to be an SPRC! =D so so proud of everyone..and once again, congrats to the winners, hakeem (intermediate men 2nd), irwan (open men 1st), hatta (open men 2nd) and hafiz (open men 3rd). and of cos not forgetting the finalist, gary, hans, shikin and sue ann. all of you did great nonetheless..i'm so proud of you guys! and don't worry, its not the end yet!

and me, i did quite badly for the comp. hah. joined intermediate women and got 11th place. but i think i did great :) haha. i didn't plan to join, but since the sch is sponsering half of it, so wtheck..11th place isn't that bad..heh.

ok so sch have been very hectic since it started. and it still is..i'm still trying my best to cope with everything. have been spending so much time on my studies without even realising it. didn't even have the time to climb due to all the ICAs..i'm seriously trying my best. but i guess the pple i live with will never understand.

gg to sch without any pocket money has been difficult. i just have to depend on my friends everytime. and i just cant do it anymore. if i could find a job right now, and if i could find the time to work, i would have alr work my ass off to support myself.

just so you guys noe, i currently don't have any family now. well, at least that's how i feel right now..and i don't give a damn anymore. they don't care abt me, why the hell shud i care abt them..if they want me to starve, then let me starve..now i've got lesser things to worry abt.

i will never give up my passion for anything. it's the only thing i love right now, and no one can ever take that away from me.

2007-05-26T11:58:00.000-07:00

thk u for dinner, my friend.

photos pls?

2007-05-25T10:23:00.000-07:00

no surprises.

e-learning sucks. blackboard just have to screw up everytime. hai, seriously, no surprises..

i was half-way doing this quiz, which i have been trying to finish since ytd..and blackboard hang..it just have to. and so i stupidly pressed refresh..and guess what, all gone! dang. there goes.

at times like this, i just wish for lectures, instead of such things as e-learning, where all u do is stare into the screen, trying to absord all the freaking words u read..

ok enough of complaining. lets just take a break and blog :)

ok so i broke that promise to myself. cos i went to sch to climb today. heh. i didn't intend to, really..but i have to meet zhaohong in sch to pass his barang barang today. so i told myself, wth..anw ayuni needed company and aishah wanted me to train her.

ok ok excuses..i just wanted to boulder..

wasn't my bouldering day today. they kept giving me hard routes which i just can't freaking do. still not sure if its me or the routes..haih, ok so i know u guys have faith in me, but i just wanna have fun right now, u noe? i wanna do fun routes, esp when its not really my day..hai just hope u guys would understand..

and this time i'm joining pumpfest for fun. and the shirt of cos. so no expectations. just the experience.

mybe after all that then i'll start the real trg for the next comp. which is like when, next year? hah, i have all the time i need..in the mean time, i want to try bouldering at other schs..like dover, tp? lets.

have u ever felt unsure of how u feel towards someone?
when u like him so much, and hate him that much.
when u know u could never get along.
but u still can't get him out of your head.
and all u could do is wait, wait for that feeling to go away.
wait for it all to end.

2007-05-23T10:03:00.000-07:00

E-LEARNING!

damn i have to really stop the procrastination..REALLY!!! heh, now thats just me doing self-talk.

its alr mid week and i have not started on my e-learning..i noe i have been doing last minute work for these past years..but it seriously have to stop. cos i just know i'm gonna regret, just like the other times. lets see if this self-talk will work. hmm..

helped out in the rockgym just now. the putting up of tiles esp..and now i love the place much more than before! its like heaven to me, really..i didn't want to stop climbing just now. just feel like sleeping over at the rockgym, waking up to the tiles and the wall, and climbing again..ahh, if only..

my passion is growing again..AI, i love bouldering, i duu...

ok so that has to stop there, cos i HAVE to focus on my studies. esp now that rockmaster is over and done with..that is why i decided i'm not gonna climb anymore this week. now thats a promise i made to myself, and one that i won't break. =)

gg to the newater plant tml for..erm for what, i kinda forgot..gosh its for some assignment i think. -_-"

ok other than that, i've got other plans that i have to write down on my organiser before i forget..damn, its either im getting old, or my neurons are depleting in number..or mybe both? aye i have to stop banging my head into stuffs.

oh btw does neurons help in rmbering stuffs?? hai, what am i learning in sch man...study nura, study!

2007-05-21T04:16:00.000-07:00

5th isn't bad, right?

right..rockmaster is FINALLY OVER! and we're just lucky its e-learning week. thk sp?

woke up at 4 today. and im still tired. and my eyes are sore aft wearing contacts lens for 3 days straight. yup, didn't took it out for that long. well its all worth it. the weekend was darn tiring but i can't say i didn't have fun. cos i had loads.

1st of all, congrats to all the winners, hakeem, terry, azim, yan, carene, hatta and of cos, shikin! and those from other schs..and congrats to all the other finalists too..its just too many to mention, really..

ok so i was dissapointed with my performance. cos i seriously wasn't at my best. but then again competition isn't everything..and u don't have to win to achieve, right? right.

wanna thk hatta and jinli for making me feel better..and now i am proud of myself for getting 5th.
and thk zhenhui and her mom for letting us bathe at her hse for the 2 days. hah.

overall, rockmaster was fun. and the finals was great. but the experience was the greatest. gained so much from it all. no regrets..

rock on, SPRC!

2007-05-17T06:13:00.000-07:00

a day of realisation

i went home early today! =)) actually reached home at 8..but but i realise there's nth to eat at home..ahh. how to grow fatter like this??

and i realise that my hse doesn't look like a hse anymore..cos no one has been doing the hsework. and i mean no one. cos tuesday's dishes is still in the sink, unwashed. and there are like 2 basket of laundry not hung. and my last week's clothes has not been washed yet. wth.

ok fine i'll be a good daughter and do the hsework today. since i've got time..oh and hopefully i'll have time to study. yes, study...

oh sch was fun today. we realise something freaky abt penguin! and i saw it with my own eyes..hah, so so freakyy. and that wasn't the only thing i realise. HEH. and joan treated us all to some sweet treats. yumyum. i love u joan! hahah.

YEAY got LOA tml..whoopie!~ hopefully i'll be useful tml. and i cant wait for rockmaster finals! alr got my spirits up, thx to hatta. *perform for no one else but yourself* and i cant wait to see the open climbers compete. and my idol too!! heh.

ok gotta do the hsework before my mom comes home and start nagging. and there goes my good mood..

why do i even bother?

2007-05-13T09:24:00.000-07:00

didn't expect to qualify 2nd, but yes i did..i guess its true when they say the strongest doesn't always win the comp. cos its all in the mind. and i have to thk hatta for that. and also for being there in the morning just to watch us. aishah too. im so honoured. heh.

ok now back to studies. hai from 2nd place..to last. im so dead. its 12 midnight and i still haven't studied for tml's test. and it just have to be a fully ICA module. plus i haven't finish my datasheet that was due last friday and my tutorial too.

and nobody here seems to care what im going through..cos they think they're the only ones with problems.

had this feeling that i feel i shud let out. but i just can't. cos it wouldn't matter anw. it wouldn't change anything..i guess nobody will ever noe how i feel..

2007-05-10T08:10:00.000-07:00

hello again

rockmaster is in 2 days time. and i don't really give a damn. cos it haven't hit me yet. i guess i'll just face it all on that day itself..or the night before. all i need to do is self-talk myself. and my climbing partner of cos =)

don't really have much to do now. since all that are needed to be done is done. and i don't know what i'm suppose to do during the comp itself. logistics? right..

didn't really help much just now cos i had lessons till 6. the same thing tml..and i can't skip any of the lessons. cos i did that for the whole of friday last week. damn. ohyar watching SP Cresendo tml. its a singing competition and jinli's in it. cant wait. allez jinli darling..

oh me and shikin decided to pull ourself out of the intermediate cat cos we want to stay over on sat. if not we wouldn't get the chance to stay over at all. and i'm so hoping that we can stay over somewhere tgt tml cos i need shikin to prep-talk me. and plus i'm gonna need the company cos i wouldn't be able to sleep for sure. anyone's hse available?

didn't realise its been 1 week since i last blogged. and i actually thought i have been blogging quite often..hah. funny how fast time flies when u look forward to something so much. and now that its finally here, u feel that u're not ready for it, that it can wait abit longer..

oh well. im just gonna give it my all. hopefully it wouldn't screw up like boulderactive. lets hope for a miracle now..

and i alr chose a song to dedicate to shikin and myself when both of us are climbing..lets just hope it will help.

2007-05-04T10:22:00.000-07:00

ROCKMASTER

ahh yes..rockmaster. a few months back i remember myself wanting to win rockmaster so damn bad esp after boulderactive. now, i cant imagine myself getting top 10 to qualify at all..i have been climbing very little ever since sch started because of 1) the FO camp, 2) trainings for year 1s, 3) sch and 4) rockmaster itself..everything just seems to be happening at the wrong timing. oh well, thk god =(

i'll be joining the novice and intermediate category for rockmaster. for 2 main reasons, to just have the feel of it and because its free and i can afford to..ok that's 3 reasons. heh. just looking forward to having fun overnighting and all..cant wait? ok actually it can..

i'm gg to the gym with ayuni tml to run. like finally..didnt even have the time to run ever since sch starts. and some asshole wore my shoes, got it all muddy and left it beside the rubbish bin. wtf. now i have to find sometime to wash it. all thx to that f***ing bastard. oops ok i'll stop cursing..argh.

after that meeting fayyadh at tamp to buy stuffs for rockmaster. monday still have to make time to borrow all the other stuffs we need..hopefully the logistics list will be all prepared by monday. the next 2 weeks is so gonna be damn busy larh. anyone can get for me LOA? just feel like skipping all the freaking lectures. oh yar that reminds me, have to do a make up for the stupid practical i skipped just now. its not like i did it on purpose sia. i just cant freaking wake up!! argh. its ok lily skipped too, so at least i can do make up with her. wee~

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i soo want to watch the bouldering comp for the X-games. but there's one prob. i don't noe if its happening tml or it alr happened ytd..hah, watched gary and zaki compete just now. stupid la why must they even go agst each other. ishk~ anw whatever it is im still proud of them!

2007-05-02T09:18:00.000-07:00

get the feel of it

now i get to feel what being in the committee feels like..and how hectic sch can be. rockmaster is next week.....and i haven even start training..wth, i guess i'll just be joining for fun and not for the prize. cos there is no effing way im gonna win anyway.

the girls are coming quite often now, those in my batch..and i cant be any happier. there's only one problem..the gym is always packed with pple. the rockgym has never been this busy before..but of cos it is definately better than an empty rockgym. just gotta make sure they take care of our dearest rockgym like we do..

been so busy that i've forgotten my cousin's birthday. damnn i really suck at remembering stuffs, seriously..so don't be mad if i don't rmbr ur b'dae k. its not that i don't care, i just can't freaking rmbr! ok i'm gonna make it up for my cuz soon..as soon as i got some money, somehow...

there will be a meeting this friday abt the training for the year ones at 7pm..bird's incharge. and guess what, he doesn't noe what he's gonna say. hah, so i guess i'll just brainstorm some things for the meeting after this..

i still have to meet up with fayyadh again abt the logistics for rockmaster..had a meeting with him just now for an hr? and it was just the brainstorm only. i wonder how long it will take to confem everything.

hai, rockmaster's next week for god's sake, and the one incharge is in shanghai! kahh..

i realise all this is slowly starting to affect my studies. i can hardly concentrate in class now. either too tired, or too distracted. damn, cannot larh..got to change!! studies 1st!! STUDIES 1ST!!

help?

2007-04-30T09:48:00.000-07:00

finally back

k got my internet and scv back. finally.

the camp is finally over and done with. and it sucks in terms of organisation, but everything went on well after sometime..and it was so !@#$% tiring la. hopefully the year ones enjoyed it..and to those year 3's who helped out, thx alot guys..couldn't have done it without u. and hope u all enjoyed the food too.

ok so we did reach our quota. cos i realise there's alot of year ones coming. well at least more than what i expected..and now the committee is cracking our heads on how to train the big bunch. i can see now that the committee members are finally taking everything seriously, esp now that gary is not here. its true la, we have to start making our own decision instead of gg to gary every single time. that poor guy..

skipped today's morning lessons cos i didn't manage to wake up. was seriously tired, no kidding. was planning to skipped the whole day but i have to help bird out with the training. yup, training started today and it went well..the girls that came for the camp are really very enthu and i love them! had so much fun playing captain's ball with them during the camp up to 4 am in the morning..they rock la. and now my legs are aching..hopefully the other girls are like that too.

yessarh tml no sch! can sleep the whole day..im so looking forward to slacking at home, napping, watching tv, eating for the whole of tml..whooppie! that means im not free tml..sry guys, im broke anyways..

cant think of anything else to blog. just wanna wish all the best to those taking part in the x-games. good luck gary and zaki! do us proud!

ok off to sleep! till next time..

2007-04-19T06:51:00.000-07:00

life's tough when u lost your grip

didn't realise how i'm treated until a few days ago..its sad la but true. and i have to face the truth. mybe make believing isn't the best solution. and i didn't realise im lost till i'm found. but getting back to the right track is a great feeling..yes i feel great now.

skipped two days worth of lessons this week because of the CCA drive. well its not actually skipping since i got LOA(leave of absence). kinda regretted not gg for the lessons actually. but wth, its over. and i promise im gonna concentrate more on my studies for these 2 years. cos rockclimbing is so not worth my time. yup, u are hearing that from me..hah, but i still love bouldering tho.

the cca drive was ok..but ive gotta say, it was kind of a disappointment cos we didn't reach the quota. at least i get to see the girls again. hopefully they will stay and help out more this time..

sch had been fun. classes had been great with the bunch of them. but sometimes i realise we can get too noisy..and distracting too. apologies to the other classmates of mine. sry guys..anw i pledge to pay attention in class and talk lesser k. and not to skip any lessons since lily came out with the lunch treating pact. thx alot lily..

been climbing everyday for the past three days..so i decided to take a break since there will be a mini comp tml. doing endurance at the high wall was great, i have to say..and having asri as a trainer would be good too. heh, serious..if not for him i wouldn't have done 6 laps of endurance on the wall ytd. but wad a pity he's in year 3 this year and i don't think he will have any time for me..

haven't been jogging for quite sometime now. cos of the damn blister. argh. but wth, i don't care. im gg to jog tml. since lily asked me. i got 5 hrs break anw..after that still got time to go shopping..hah, but too bad im broke..

and i realise pple do read my blog cos some of them actually asked me to treat them after reading that one entry i posted..hah, now i know..

k chao, i need my beauty sleep. and enough rest for tml's comp.

2007-04-13T01:01:00.000-07:00

no more!

whoopie no more work for me from today onwards..until i find another job that is. finally la..im getting so sick of the sch, serangoon garden sec. but at least im not broke anymore. not even near! heh, earn quite alot lately. i might just treat u if u ask me to..serious.

damn tired la. suppose to go sch and boulder with shikin and jasmine today, but i seriously am too tired to even boulder. went to sch ytd and i didn't even touch the wall..mybe when sch starts i'll start bouldering again. or mybe tml..who noes.

was out all week this week, from morning to night. and haven been getting enough sleep lately. working in the morning and off to somewhere else in the afternoon for the past few days. even my mom is asking me to get some rest. which is why mrt and bus rides became my napping time now. i need my beauty sleep. =_= i look ugly with these eyebags. if yue ting reads this, she would probably say "but u look ulgy all the time" hah.

monday was fun though. it was syikin's birthday and i didn't noe. sucha lousy fren i am. sry syiks. brought her and her cousin to try bouldering that day. and i met my cousin too, aft we went jogging. he chatted with me and syiks for a while, he was complaining abt the spsu camp. hah, told yar not to go..and alot of pple came to boulder in the afternoon. i have had great bouldering session this week. the rockgym had been packed with pple these days. esp with the nyp climbers coming often. finally get to feel the fun of bouldering with lotsa pple..

just came back from work and i decided to blog since i cant sleep. just hate this feeling, not being able to sleep when ur so tired. argh. at least i don't have to wake up early tml..

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my mom still haven find a new helper..need a job anyone? cos i definately cant help her when sch starts. lets hope the ad will work.

2007-04-07T21:33:00.000-07:00

I'M IN LOVE

with my bag! hah, what were u thinking..

yes i finally bought the bag i've been wanting since last year. so happy la~ went to buy it with yueting ytd. its was a last minute thingy cos i got fed up with my family and decided to leave the hse. and my frenfren never let me down! heh.

cooked nasi lemak ytd too. and packed for myself and her and we ate at the foodcourt at hougang mall. and she finished it! yes she did..it was nice ok..

after i bought the bag, i got so happy that i turn crazy. happy weird crazy that kind, u noe? if u dont, u can ask my frenfren. she noes..cos she have to entertain me all night long. hah, but it was super fun la. only she can entertain my ultra weirdness.

and this lazy girl finally decided to ask me go jogging cos apparently she said i look like i lost some weight after all the jogging. and she wants to lose weight too. gosh what's wrong with u pple man. not fat oso say fat. haii, i dun get it..wtheck..

so later on we'll be jogging from my hse to her hse, from hougang to amk. hah, no kidding. lets just hope i wont be getting any stitches.

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i came across a quote that i would like to share..

"Independence is much more attractive than dependence"

its true right?

found this "Autobiography in FIVE SHORT CHAPTERS" too. read it..

I walk down the street.

There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.

I fall in.

I am lost..I am helpless.

It isn't my fault.

It takes forever to find a way out.

I walk down the same street.

There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.

I pretend I don't see it.

I fall in again.

I can't believe I am in the same place.

But, it isn't my fault.

It still takes a long time to get out.

I walk down the same street.

There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.

I see it there.

I still fall in. It's a habit.

My eyes are open.

I know where I am.

It is my fault. I get out immediately.

I walk down the same street.

There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.

I walk around it.

I walk down another street.

This short story shows how u can take responsibility for ur life and stay away from potholes by being proactive. Blame no one else but urself and be responsible for every step u take, every choice u make. Be proactive, u'll get there faster..

2007-04-06T11:55:00.000-07:00

music IS my life

akon rawks la..realise all of his songs never fail to make it to the top 10 hits everytime. check out his new song, don't matter..

just uploaded a playlist on my friendster profile, my top 5 hits right now, check it out too..

i simply love the fray's song, how to save a life. i noe its been quite sometime since the song came out but i still havent got sick of it.

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i finally got an organiser! been wanting it for so long lah..i actually fought with my lil bro over it. childish, i noe. but wtheck, its worth it. and what does a pri 2 kid need an organiser for aniway..

been jogging alot lately. gonna have to make it my hobby..its the only way i can improve my stamina and my leg power. all for the love of bouldering. or obsession, if you look at it another way.

i realise very little pple have been bouldering in sp nowadays. where have sprc gone too? sometimes i feel like i'm all that is left of it. bleah, my motivation is going away alr. if i'm not doing it for sprc, then i shall do it for myself..

lets just see what happens when sch reopens yea?

anyway i'm gg jogging with syikin(my sec sch buddy, not shikin my climbing partner =) on monday. and i'm bringing her to try bouldering too. but i've got a problem. i gave the rockgym key to bert ytd..dang! that means i have to climb in from the top and boulder with the shutters close. so gonna hate it. hai, nvm..i'm still gonna have music, the wall and syikin to boulder with!

2007-04-04T07:30:00.000-07:00

the ups and the downs

im going thru alot these days, the ups, the downs..and its been going on for quite sometime alr. and i tink im getting use to it. everytime i manage to pull myself out of some shit, another came right smack in the face. well everybody have problems, its how you handle them that matters..

everything is going on fine right now, if you compare to what i went thru last week. i'm not broke anymore =) but im not spending too. syu gave me a few advices that day that i decided to take. so i'm not spending unless i really need to. been wanting to go shopping since like forever cos i seriously need to change my wardrobe. but then again, thats a want, so it can wait..but i'm still getting that bag i saw at compasspoint. have been looking for it for months now and i don't think that can wait much longer. heh, sry syu, gotta let u down on that.

been helping my mom alot these days cos she still haven fully recovered yet and i tink she really needs me right now. and what a bummer, her stall helper quit today, cos apparently her legs are getting too weak. damn, now we got to find another helper, which will take like what, a week? that means i have to wake up at 5am everyday to help my mom. hai, there goes my late nights..oh well, at least im getting paid. heh. im still wondering tho, how my mom does it, sleeping late at night and waking up in the wee hours preparing the food..she's awesome lah

ok chao gotta wake up early tml. at least its half day~ and no work on friday! i'll take that opportunity to pay my debt, the hrs of sleep i owe myself. oh damn gotta do the hsework 1st. im sucha good daughter. heh.

lets make believe everything will be fine. and it will eventually.

2007-03-30T08:55:00.000-07:00

back on my feet.

okay my mom is feeling alot better now. like finally..and i got to go to SP and climb today. was planning to leave at 2 but my mom made me cook. and so i was late, like almost 2 hrs late. sry babe!

and shikin wasn't much in the climbing mood. so after some time, i had to climb alone. since no one else was in the rockgym. what a bummer. but still, it wasn't a bad climbing session. it was good actually. see, all i need is music and the wall..and i can climb all day. shikin said i look like a climbing machine today, climbing routes after routes..ahh yes, climbing machine.

we went off early today and conveniently forgot to do our conditioning. there wasn't enough time anw. and so i left the rockgym feeling unsatisfied..another bummer. and so guess what? i reached home, changed, and went to jog aroung hougang at 10pm alone. hah, and now i feel so much more satisfied. and i've made the decision to do this more regularly, like 3 times a week.

i've got a goal. now, time to go for it! yeah.

i'll make sure i'm going for rockmaster prepared. and i'm not letting SP down again.

i hope..

2007-03-27T22:41:00.000-07:00

god hates me

i'm a fucked up girl, in this fucked up world, where nobody seems to care..

`yue says:
no vulgarities nurasilah

hah, alright no vulgarities.

i've been having a bad time since aft boulderactive. i might have gone into depression if not for my frens, seriously..if i hadn't gone out, i might have just laid in my bed thinking nobody ever really cares. yup.

ok first of all im dead broke. i'm suppose to get my pay from my mom for the buffet i've helped her out with that day. but the freaking MOE have not banked in the money yet. and so my whole family is currently broke. effing MOE. argh.

and now i cant afford to pay for my hp bill. and so my line has been temporarily cut off. besides that, i've been going out without a single cent in my pocket for these past few days. and it gets even more irritating when there's never anything to eat at home except maggie mee, that is, IF im lucky. and if this keeps going on for long, i might just turn anorexic without even knowing it. how nice.

and plus, i cant go anywhere bcos my ezlink is currently worth -25cents. and i cant even afford to top it up. just my luck huh? so pls stop asking me to go out unless the place is only a walking distance from my hse.

and guess what, my mom got so sick that she cant even go to the toilet by herself. so who else to take care of her but me right? right..and if she doesn't get any better, i have no choice but to cancel my climbing session tml and plus i cant send jhim off to the airport.

other than all that, everything else is fine and dandy.

wad a fucked up world. oh well, i'll be fine. as long as u dont question me abt my fone, and no one else ask me to go shopping, i'll be ok. oh btw msn is my only means of contact right now, since my hse fone too got cut off.

ok, i'll stop whining now.

2007-03-26T03:42:00.000-07:00

1st Prize for Team Spirit!

Hah, ok so boulderactive was a shock for us, a smack right in the face for SP. None of us won anything except for Gary. He won 2nd place for the Open Men category! We're just lucky we got him. you rock dude!

I was so inspired to climb after seeing the open finalists competing agst one another. And even though all of our SPRC members weren't at our best, we never stop cheering on for each other. 1st Prize for Team SPirit! we rock lah~

Boulderactive was an eye-opener for me. A great experience. Made me realise my biggest weakness. And now i'm more determined to work on it and improve. All of us feel that way now. So watch out Rockmaster, cos we'll be back with vengence!! Allez SPRC!

Ok so no rewards for us but i had loads of fun, seeing ayu melting over Khairul Hafiz and nonie getting excited over Safarina..Its just too bad we won't get to see those Malaysian climbers at rockmaster, since it will only be for Singaporeans and PRs.

And guess what..I've found a personal trainer, azim! hah, and now i can't wait to start training again. Wanted to take a week break but changed my mind. Gonna start trg tml!

Realise my life have been revolving around rockclimbing ever since i found this new passion of mine. I even have my climbing idol, none other than asri's sister, SITI!! hah.

Anw things gonna be super hectic when sch reopens. my next semester's timetable sucks real bad, starting at 8am almost everyday, and ending as late as 6pm on 3 outta 5 days. Now i noe why i rarely see Fayyadh climbing. hai, i have got to work my time out somehow. yea, i will.

2007-03-20T10:05:00.000-07:00

my poor fingers

i realise that climbing has decrease my speed of typing. like seriously. i cant even chat properly now. i will only get to finish typing my comment everytime the oth side has typed 3 comments. hah. can you guys type abit slower pls?

another thing i realise. i notice this one thing that almost all rockclimbers' blog have in similar. all of them tend to blog abt their fingers. hah, no kidding.

and mine are hurting rite now. my fingers are so swollen that i cant even bent them to type properly. damn. i was staring at my left middle finger just now. and it freaked me out. it looked like its been dislocated sia, like twisted. FREAKY. i tried to straighten it and it hurts so bad. and now its 15 degrees to the others. ugly

2007-03-18T00:30:00.000-07:00

can't wait.

pheew..the one week of intense training is finally over. by friday, my fingers were already screaming for help..and i cant even hang on the nicest thing there is for long..sheesh. oh well, as they say, no pain no gain.

now my fingers are all swollen and my arms are aching like !@#$%. all this for the sense of achievement i feel now. yup, all for a good cost..now all i need is 2 days of rest and after that, intense trg again!

and by this friday, i can finally see where i stand in this world of rockclimbers. hah. don't mind me, im just chasing my dreams..can't wait for boulderactive. can't wait to meet the pple of my standards..fooo.

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jhim's leaving for melbourne next thurs and all of us plan to send her to the airport. hai, if only i get to study in melbourne like her. but then again i can't bear to leave this lovely place of mine for so long..

jhim, im gonna miss uuu man~

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now i can't wait for sch to start. can't wait to meet the freshies. heh. and can't wait for the FO camp. can't wait, can't wait for so many things..

alright, be patient now~

2007-03-13T10:02:00.000-07:00

its all in the mind

boulderactive is just 10 days away. and im freaking out..i wan to win it so bad, but i keep thinking what makes me think i got what it takes to win?? god breathe nura, breathe....

went home ytd feeling unsatisfied bcos i had a bad climbing session. and i have to blame my mind for this. its all the mind. was so freaking annoyed that finally me and shikin decided to gave up climbing and run ard the sch. and yes, we did..

so i went home, telling myself i've gotta have the "i can do it!" mindset for climbing session the next day. and well, it works! even the loneliness of climbing alone today didn't get to me. and i went home today with a great sense of achievement.

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i've been pondering on this very question that has been bothering me for months now. and i still dont have the ans to it.

anw why do i feel that no one reads my blog? oyar cos nobody tags. hai, even things like this can bring me down these days.

2007-03-10T00:23:00.000-08:00

u dont know anything, so just shuddup.

i've never hated him like this before but i really think its just too much. argh, i don't wanna say this but i really feel he's the worst dad anyone could ever ask for.

ok im not saying that nagging is wrong, but when my dad nags, i just feel like screaming back at him, cos he's the kind who dont know what's gg on and just nag cos he always feel that i'm in the wrong. wtf did i do??

and now he's saying that i should not be trusted, saying that i'm using rock climbing as a reason for coming home late everyday. like wtf??? im gonna bring home another trophy just to prove it to you

call me rude for talking back, but i cant let u blabber on and on when u dont know shit abt me.

and thk my mommy for being on my side =))

breathe nura, breathe..

ahh, i feel much better now.

2007-03-09T09:11:00.000-08:00

lets blog..

its 1 am in the morning, i cant sleep, and there's nobody i could chat with online..so, lets blog!

its been a tiring day today but at least i dont have to worry abt work next week cos those little kids are having their one week hols. and i seriously need to find a new job, hopefully not in the f&b line. cos im sick of entertaining fussy customers. but then again, when ur blessed with those regular customers who just understand u oh so well, nth could stop u from smiling..those pple always made my day =)

oh well, i still wanna move away from the f&b line..mybe some job at the airport will do. that, i can ask my dearest uncle to help me find.

been thinking of getting new climbing shoes. cos the anasazi is seriously too small. and been planning alot on my climbing strategies, the competitions and my aims and all..so this is my plan so far..
im gg to train effing hard for boulderactive in the next 2 weeks and win a pair of new climbing shoes, with the help of my anasazi..
and train harder for rockmaster in the 2 months then cos i have no choice but to move on to intermediate, that is, if i win for boulderactive. and whether i stay in intermediate or move on to open, that, i'll worry abt then..but i wanna win the money! hai, mybe next year?

climbed 3 times this week, but i still think its not enough. cos i dont think im improving. and im not sure what its gonna take for me to win boulderactive so im just gonna push myself as much as i could till i myself cant take it anymore.

oh yar, a bit random but i just realise i've got problem with saving money, the problem i used to have years ago. mybe becos now i get daily pay from my mom, and i just feel that i could afford anything i want, esp junk food. garh, its irritating sometimes, but they are oh so yummy..i've so gotta find a way to stop spending. and mybe then i could afford the new bag i've wanted. hmm..

been missing someone lately. but i guess its for the better..

2007-03-07T03:30:00.000-08:00

just breathe

results out today! was so nervous cos i had a feeling i was gonna fail my biophysics module..i mean how confident will u feel when u fail all ur ICAs for that module?? thoughts of forwarding the module came rushing to my mind when i was otw home to check my results..

but guess what, i passed! phew~ i freaking passed the module..must be the presentation that pulled me up..but wth, hu cares..i passed!!

had been gg out very often this week. had so much things to keep me buzy..i rmbred how much i wanted to go out last week, and now, i just wished i had more time to spend at home..

already counting down the days to boulderactive..and still contemplating on whether i should follow my parents to malacca to visit my grandparents next week. the thoughts of the competition have not gotten to me yet, but im already pushing myself as much as i could to really train. climbed so much that my fingers had this burning sensation that makes me feel as if i could start a fire with them. was gonna climb again on friday, but now i feel that 2 days rest is too much. so i guess i'll be climbing again tml..

oh some guy called me up for an interview for singtel just now. sheessh, could it be a trap? cos i sure don't rmbr asking for any job at singtel..should i go? argh.

2007-03-03T09:34:00.000-08:00

ooohwee~

got my scv and internet back! and about time too..cos im getting sick of staying at home too long without having anything to do..

things been gg well these days. and im getting fatter! hah, something i've been trying to achieve for so long, and finally did. erm ok not yet, but soon, soon..

and since i stop working at delifrance, ive been having so much free time..and i realise how boring life can get sometimes, esp without rockclimbing, due to the revamping of our dearest rockgym..
but working with my mom is not bad actually. its the easiest way for me to earn money now, and i can even sleep on my job. spending more time with my mom too have benefits of its own

anw the revamping of our rockgym is finally done. the end result is nth but awesome. but i realise with that colour, its gonna be very difficult to keep the walls look clean. but wth, we've gotta get use to it..and i really appreciate everything the guys did, cos i feel that they put in so much effort, much more than ive ever imagine they would...u guys rawk!

climbing in the new rockgym feels so weird tho. i just feel foreign climbing there again..and plus ive been climbing like shit these days, and i dont know why..i seriously need to train super hard. since boulderactive is just 2 weeks away...gosh, 2 weeks!! argh.

was chatting with hafiz just now..and he was asking if im still single. fuck im sick of pple asking that question. im single goddammit, and rite now i wish im not ok? gosh my lovelife sux.

but i'll be patient now..if all it takes is time, then i'll wait...

and i'll stop cursing too. soon..

2007-02-24T07:49:00.000-08:00

blame me next

wow life sux without scv and internet..

and to make things worst, i said something that i shouldn't have. and now they hate her. and i tink i'm the one to blame. why cant i just shut up? hai..

and now i have no idea who's side i'm on

anw they already finish painting the climbing walls in the rockgym. only the designing left..and i've gotta say they really did a good job. and i love it! cerdits to gary, hakeem and azhar

just wish that i could do more to help..

and i find it really sweet of them to wanna actually surprise the rest. and i'm sorry for ever complaining ohrite?

2007-02-19T02:54:00.000-08:00

some fotos i took over the weekends. finally uploaded them..

the dumb old faces

last minute cny shopping?

bbq at aloha loyang. gotta book this place for the next chalet..i so love it!

2007-02-18T09:14:00.000-08:00

those fun-filled days are back

wow im loving this, all fun and no work..i pity those who have to work really, i noe how it feels..and thk god for giving me a break.

my manager had been msging and calling me to ask when i can work again, but i didn't rply nor did i ans any of her calls. there is no way they're gonna make me work at delifrance again. but i have to tell her somehow cos i noe i can't hide from her forever. and i'm starting to feel bad treating her like this since its not really her fault. hai.

anw i'm enjoying this cny hols really. if only life can stay like this forever. i actually don't have any plans for the weekends but things start to come out one by one, and plans start to build up by itself..

went to acc yue ting for last minute shopping on sat and boyy, i had fun spending my money..its not alot but at least i worked for it..and it feels good. hah. went to chalet at aloha loyang today and met up with my cousins. miss spending time with them..and the chalet, wow. its super big and lovely..i love it! i gotta say i ate alot today..its 1 am and i still feel bloated. i ate at the bbq~ and i ate at simpang bedok~ hai, chances like this comes once in a while for me, so wth..

and tml, i'll finally get to go for a beach outing..whoopie! its been like what, years?? since my family went for a picnic, and i mean family as in my cousins, uncles, aunties..and including my dearest grandmother. never seen her so happy in such a long time, and it makes me smile really..so ecp, here we come!

anw finally activated my line again so anything contact me kays. oh yar a bit too late but wth. to my fellow chinese frens, happy cny! have fun guys..

2007-02-15T23:12:00.000-08:00

my wants

ok lets just take sometime off to clear my mind. and set some goals.

i want, i want to:

-train harder for rockclimbing
-do more guys' routes
-improve my tension
-improve my pinching strength
-dyno!
-go for class outing
-meet up with my old frens
-help my mommy as much as i could
-pay off my bill
-go shopping! (must wait abit longer ah)
-eat more, eat more!
-go for beach outing!
-help paint the bouldering walls
-oyar scrub the paint off the gym's floor

ok cant think of anything else rite now

hai sppose to be climbing today but im just too tired. helped to clean up and paint the rockgym ytd. the walls are a little bit too pale now..some changes still have to be made. but the lounge is lovely thx to azim, our designer. hah. and the spotlights..just wow! damn nice la the gym. cant wait to go back and climb. i miss u already, my dearest rockgym..

2007-02-14T10:37:00.000-08:00

i'm awesome

i've been busy helping my mom out with everything, the tarts, the cakes, the cookies, her stall..and of cos, i have never stop climbing..ah yes, bouldering rocks..

still, i've made the effort to plan trainings for the other girls since there's alot of competitions coming up and they look like they really need to train. so i came up with the trg every mon, weds, fri and made the effort on these days to end work earlier so that i could make myself available for them.

well, now i found out they're not able to commit to the trgs, and rockclimbing itself..its kinda sad when u see urself as the only one making an effort, when ur actually just trying to help, realising that ur the one who will be benefiting the least from it. depressing really..

oh well, i give up. it hurts to be nice really.

talked to jinli abt this and she told me that i need to find oth pple to train with, since shikin will be working alot more these days..but its difficult, really, to find pple to train with u.

anw, climb with the super strong pple today. and i mean the strongest i know..and i really love it..had hatta and gary to climb with, and they really push me to my limits. they keep giving me guys routes. was so fucking tired la..but i am gaining alot from them. if only they could train me. hai..

its 5am and i just finish making all the cookies. hai, still have to go sch later to clean the rockgym up. hopefully it'll be fun painting the place and all..

i've learn to just live by the moment and make decisions as i go along now. and realise i've been making alot of good decisions, hah..but seriously, 80% of the time im happy with my decisions, the oth 20% regretting what i chose. still, its not bad rite?

i am awesome. hee

2007-02-10T21:57:00.000-08:00

wow, im shocked.

overheard my mom talking to my bro on the phone ytd. think my bro was having probs with his gf. then heard my mom say, "kau jgn fras sgnt la..kau maseh muda lagi kan [silence] tu la, ma slalu ckp jgn take things too seriously, ade bnyk gf pon tkpe. jgn stay pat satu jer..u're still young"

[translation] "dun be stress la. ure still young [silence] thats why i always say dun take things too seriously, its ok to have more than one gf, dun just stay with one ..ure still young.."

i was in my room when i overheard. and i snorted too myself. hah, i cant believe my mom gave that advice..seriously, i din noe my mom is that cool..hai, i love my mommy..

2007-02-10T21:33:00.000-08:00

pinching strength sux + tension sux. + a little too many bad falls = BAD

work on it, work on it..

bouldering rocks~

2007-02-08T04:52:00.000-08:00

its finally over

my exams are finally over. and now that its all gone, i just feel that something's missing..weird. how can i ever miss studying? gosh im gg crazy really

anw now i can finally do my new year resolutions. a little bit too late i know, but wth.

and for the record, my mom didn't take back her old job..hai, but she got her reasons..anw she's been making quite alot from her stall lately, like what 100bucks a day. and she said if i help her out, she'll be paying me 5 bucks per hr. how can i ever reject that offer man. so im helping her out during the hols. every morning...hai.

aft my paper ytd, i accompany hayati and her fren, najip, to look for a job at harbourfront. i didn't wanna go but she forced me to. and in the end, i applied for a job at toys'r'us at vivo.

was feeling so so tired aft only 1 hr of sleep the night before, mugging for my last paper. but it was all worth it. im so super proud of myself.
im awesome!
laugh it up if u want but its true. heh..

anw went back to sch aft that but didn't climb much. i feel super tired but i just couldn't sleep. so so weird.

didn't go out today. its always good to start your hols by just staying at home. cos i really miss doing nth but watching tv and playing the comp. but didn't get the chance to do that actually. helped my mom to do the hsechores and making the tarts today. already made 200, just 2800 more to go..hai.

anw i get the chance to watch D.O.A. today. cool movie..just hoping my bro keeps bringing home awesome movies like that.

shit i forgot. have to help my mom out tml at her stall. hai, the only thing i hate abt it is that i have to wake up early and that the sch she works at sucks. just like bowen..its the bloody pple that spoils the sch's name everytime..oh well..its only for a few hrs. then off i go for training..

im awesome.

2007-02-03T23:34:00.000-08:00

our luck is finally changing around here

hopefully money's not gonna be a big problem anymore. esp when my mom will be getting a stable job again. hopefully..

my mom actually works for brother international (a sewing machine company) a few years back..or was it 2 years? ok i cant quite rmbr..but she had to quit because of some problems with the manager. so her working life has not been easy since then. and neither was our family's life. that's when my brothers and i started working for ourselves..and dadada..

last year my mom got a stall at the primary sch where my dad is working. but business was bad. everyone seems to love her food except for the other stall holders who seemed to be trying everything to get her out of the canteen. and of cos my mom couldn't take it so she left. and now she got another stall at serangoon garden secondary, not far from our hse..she signed for a 2 year contract and had started working a few days back. business was ok. she made profit ard $50 a day aft paying her helper and all. it was ok..

but her old colleague from brother international called in just now, saying that they want her back desperately, talking to her for hrs on the phone, pleading her to at least consider. and i dun think my mom would let an opportunity like this slip away. well we wun let her..for god's sake her pay would be doubled if she get the job back. but of cos there's quite alot of things to consider..we shall see where this goes..

last paper on weds..i cant wait, really. will be doing nth but bouldering and training with the oths.. plus i promised to help my mom out in her stall and making pineapple tarts, choc chip cookies and cakes for CNY. wow i will be making money alrite..

whoopie, our luck is changing alrite..

2007-02-02T04:56:00.000-08:00

the feeling that kills deep inside

again, i proved that milo is all u need to survive the day.

im here to blog again. cos i really need to just destress myself now. i have been studying too much..and being at home now just freaking kills. being with those who just don't understands..my brain's half dead now. it was totally dead just now but the 8 hrs of sleep had helped alot..

ok so i went to sch ytd. planned to study for bsbm paper the whole day. but i realise that the whole day wasn't enough to finish studying. so, at 10pm, me, zh and van decided to just stay over in sch to finish it all up. and so 10pm, from moberly, we went to the EEE block where the lights never go out. and so we studied and studied till 6am and went back to moberly. i took naps in between to just give my brain a break everytime nth seems to get into my head. and the freaking EEE blk was so so cold. it just make me miss my comfy bed so so much.

went for the paper at 9am. and shit it was like !@#$%. its was difficult. oh well hopefully i pass. and guess what. i was so freaking tired that i was practically dosing off at the 1st part of the paper. and aft the paper i went home, braindead. i was dragging my feet all the way home i swear my bro will kill me if he found out that i wore out the sole of his slippers.

and here i am. woken up at 8pm. and i realise all i had for today was a cup of milo in the morning. and guess what. i have to cook my own rice if i wanna eat now. cos why, nobody cares if i had to eat or not. the pple in this hse just happen to think abt theirselves only. hai i hate this. i really do. it just makes me wanna give up and not eat anything till i starve to death. but i know that wun happen. i wun let that happen..even if i have to live in this world alone, i know i will make it by myself.

2 more things to worry abt now. my last paper on weds, and my hp bill. shit i have to pay it all off by monday. all 300 bucks. and if nobody's gonna help me, i'll just pay it all by myself. somehow..

wow i hate this freaking feeling. oh well, just have to fight it now.

2007-01-27T01:12:00.000-08:00

i cant take this anymore..

ok so i planned to study at the moberly block last nite. but they say it was full and noisy with those freaks who must have nowhere to go. don't want to study, go home la...argh, ok no more cursing.
fff..ffreaks..

and that cost us our nite of studying. well at least i enjoyed climbing ytd..ahh bouldering rocks! anw at 10.30 we went clementi. was thinking of joining my classmates at T10 aft that but they called me and say that it was too dark. so they ask me to meet them at the 24hrs mac at bukit timah i tink..but i figured by the time i get back to sch to take my stuffs, there wun be animore buses. so i decided to join shikin, hans and terry instead.

when we reach clementi, syu and yan was still there, having their 3rd cup of drink. hah. we chatted and chatted and by the time we left the place it was 12.10am and there was no more buses. hah, lucky still got mrt. went back to dover and had our night walk all the way back to our dearest rockgym. watched step up and slept aft that. and we woke up at like what, 12 noon?

and the rockgym was so eerie man. keep hearing weird noises all night but i managed to sleep at last. shikin on the oth hand, couldn't sleep until at 6am cos she was too scared. hah, poor ting really..

anw went back to get my cheque at hg mall and my manager told me that one of the staff cant make it later and she ask me to work. i was like wtf, im tired la for god's sake..and i really need to study for monday's paper..and she din even bother to listen to my excuse. hai, and i agreed to help her out for 3 hrs but realise that i dun have the black pants for the new uniform when i got home.. msg my manager and she din rply, so i decided to not go to work and let them suffer.

i seriously had enough of this shit man. so im not gg to bother animore. ah sack me if u want, i'll be glad to leave the place if this is how u're gonna keep treating me..fuck, i dun give a damn anymore.

and they were suppose to bank in my pay last week, but oh, they forgot..and instead of banking in, they gave it in terms of cheque, which i have to take myself and i have to wait for a few more days b4 i can withdraw the money. because why? they forgot. they freaking forgot..

so yar im gg to find out the person who was suppose to bank in my pay and report to the MOM. oh hell yes, im serious..

got so much things to do. ok chopchop, lets go..

2007-01-25T08:40:00.000-08:00

a cup-o-milo is all u need to survive for the day

i was otw back from sch in the mrt when i realise i didn't eat anything today, except for the cup of milo i drank b4 i left the hse. cool huh, and the amazing thing is that i only start to really starve otw back home at 9. i guess im getting use to it.

and i totally forgot that i have to go to my workplace to collect my new uniform today. and this is the 2nd time i've forgotten. so i went there instead of gg home. was super hungry that amir had to treat me to kfc. thx amir! anw chatted with the whole bunch of them, amir, hafiz, ain, faeza, ahpie, mak rabeta, till 11.30. hah, we had a great time bullying our manager who had to work fullshift today. she was a great sport man. after talking and joking for an hour, i tell u, it seems as if she can work another fullshift. i hate working at delifrance but i just simply love the people there. sometimes, it feels as if they're the only ones i've got.

so i decided that i will find a new job, but i ain't gonna quit delifrance.

anw got great plans for tml.hee..still not sure if i shud go for my chem lessons in the morning. but i'll be climbing tml till ard 11pm. whoopie! cant wait..and aft that, meeting my classmates @moberly to study overnight. i'll try to get enough sleep so that i can really study during that night.

to that certain someone, thx for making it so much easier for me to get over u.

to myself, i am stronger than i think i am. and im proud of it.

cheers to my plans tml. hope nth's gonna spoil it.

2007-01-24T05:09:00.000-08:00

gimme that.

all i need is music bebeh. i need no one else..

psst..im lying.

2007-01-21T07:49:00.000-08:00

its one thing to hear, its another to face it yourself.

its ok to talk behind my back. but don't you dare act nice in front of me no more. hearing what you have to say was all i need to know now to see for myself what kinda person you really are. no, u're no backstabber..ur a bitch. and a big one at that.

the stupidest thing pple say, jus prove how stupid they really are.

oh well, aint nth like that gonna bring me down tonight. had a rough day today actually. but i managed to cheer myself up. and thx to my frenfren too. hah.

i was working morning shift today. and the stupidest thing was that i didn't eat last night before i slept. and went strait to work in the morning. and yar i was alone doing cashier/usher/server. delifrance sux big time. and i screwed up cos i was freakin hungry and tired. at one point i was clearing the dishes on my tray and my hands just gave way and the cup drop and broke. at another point i drop a container of coffee beans and had to sweep it all up. was so fucked up. and the freakin coffee machine wasn't working properly. god hates me. urghh.

anw amir treated me to the dessert aft work. hah. i finished the whole glass by myself. oh btw i decided to stop working at delifrance aft today. cos yup, i still haven get my pay. and one thing for you pple to note, dun ever mention abt my pay. cos i'd probably start screaming at your face. and yar i scolded my manager today, cos i aint gonna let them get away with this. im just really lucky to have my frens providing my pocket money for the past week. names worth mentioning, joan, hayati, shikin..thx man, love you guys..cos even my parents are broke rite now. fucked up really..

oh well, i went home aft work. was about to close my eyes and sleep when yue ting called me and asked me to accompany her eat dinner. and yar so i wore back my expired contact lens and went to eat at hougang mall with her, her treat..thx my frenfren. it was already 8.30pm and guess where we decided to go? vivo city. hah. serious. but there weren't enough time so we went to plaza sing instead. saw somethings i wanted to buy and will buy when i get my pay. that whole trip cheered me up and now im feeling so much better.

oh yar. i have been waking up early for the weekends and it makes me feel that i work harder than my parents. cos even they get to sleep peacefully till late for both weekend mornings and i have to wake up so fucking early to attend talks and work and what not.

gosh i really have to stop swearing.

anw the talk on saturday at ite simei was super boring. but i love the grp discussion. esp cos my facilitator was so darn cute. hah, but he's the kental kinda cute(innocent innocent wan) his name is alfred. hah and we made so much inside jokes bout that. i nearly died when brendan stopped and nearly asked for his number. i swear man..

anw i really love the sch, ite simei. its super beautiful. i shud have gone there man.

NAHH, sp is still my choice!

2007-01-18T08:02:00.000-08:00

BLOGgin..

whoopie i love to blog..heh.

ok im feeling happy rite now..and i know im overreacting, but i really appreciate what you did.

anw gg back to bowen tml. cant wait to meet syikin again, and cant wait to just go back to that sch..just hope we wun be kicked out again this time. anw hopefully our plan wun be cancelled again. cos we've been cancelling our plans together for god know's how many times, since like months ago..

come to think abt it, bowen is nth as compared to sp. i guess thats why we din really put in effort to go back to that sch. i love gg to sch now. i love my klas. i love climbing. i love our rockgym. i love everything i've got rite now..and i know i din lose anything when i left that sucky sch. not even my dear frens..

and guess what, i managed to study for 4 hrs by myself today! and i finally managed to catch up with maths aft not paying attention continuously for so so many lessons. its not that i dun want to, its just that i seriously can't. and can't say i din try, cos i did..oh well, wtheck i've covered for that, and im freaking proud of myself..
*applause*

finally got into the studying mood. luckily too..and its was dr. e who actually did that for me. hah, gonna bring the single pointer back man..

and i seriously need to pay back my debts, the hours of sleep i own myself. so off i go..

i hope our friendship will grow stronger,
and im willing to sacrifice my feelings for u if i have to.

2007-01-14T04:40:00.000-08:00

money is the root of all my problems. damn.

i was thinking of working at ms clarity cafe, carene told me they're doing interviews..so i told my manager i was looking for a new job and ask her to find more new staffs so that they will have enough. but she didn't want to let me go..hah, she even said that she will try to push my pay up. and she came up with so many reasons why i should just stay at delifrance. haih. what shud i do?

anw there was shortage today when i worked. damn. i wasn't doing the counter but i helped out when the cashier went for break. and i swear it wasn't my fault. but i can't let faeza pay the 30 bucks by herself. and i did touch the cashier.

fuck la now have to pay 15 bucks.

see nura..thats what u get for being so nice..fuckfuckfuck.

and i still haven get my freakin pay. what the fuck is the office pple doin man. get paid so well but can't even get their job done properly. cheebai la

came home and my mom keep asking bout my pay. damn, i got so frustated la. i dono when my freakin pay is gonna come k ma..

arrgh. heck la let me starve in sch. hu cares aniway..

2007-01-13T03:09:00.000-08:00

climbing and music rawks my world

its just one of those moments that i just don't feel like doing anithing. i dono. i feel depressed really.. bcos of one reason that i never would mention. ah heck it..

went to villa francis home for the aged today. all the way at kranji, the place just reminds me of malaysia. anw it was fun at first, but it got super tiring aft sumtime. they were taking advantage of the volunteers i tell u. they took this opportunity to let us do their work. chopping the tapioca was fun really..a good way of destressing. imagine us go bang! bang! banging on the tapioca..so so fun. then it came to the boiling of yam balls i tink. hah that was fun too. then everything else was just tiring, the pealing and chopping of onions, the cutting of vegetables, the spring onions..there was gg to be more but we manage to escape before they made us do anything else. foooh..

seeing the elderlies there having nth to do was just so depressing. me and vanessa agreed that we wouldn't be living for too long in this world. we would just probably throw ourselves down a staircase or sumthing wen we feel that we're old enough to die..hah, cos i never wan to die from boredom man.

ok i realise blogging can help to destress too. cool..anw found this song for my blog, cos my classmates say the previous song was getting boring. so here u go guys..akon again. nice? the code for the clean version wasn't working so heck this will do..nice?

i love akon

hah anw i just realise there are many things that can be destressing oth then climbing and music.
still, climbing rocks the hell outta my world. rock on~

2007-01-11T09:03:00.000-08:00

Too much indulging is NOT good

ok its been a while since my last post. been busy lately, but who cares aniway..hah.

im kinda worried for my coming exams and the coming competitions. seriously can't manage my time. but of cos studies come 1st. so there's no way im going to be climbing more than once a week for the next few weeks..

heck la, let them win for boulderactive..i'll just get the trophy and $$$ for rockmaster..hell yeah, im soo gonna work for 1st place! 500 bucks bebeh..ok can't get too excited, studies 1st, studies 1st..just 4 more weeks to go..c'mon nura , u can do it!

went to bugis with hafiz and amir today. hafiz treat me to swensens. hah. yea~ and i found out that too much of the desserts is NOT good at all. cos on the way home in the bus, i soo feel like puking..bluek~

and those idiots just cant shuddup. esp on the way home. seriously..i tink its because of them that i wanna puke, cos they just cant stop making me laugh. those jokers..

oh yar. btw SOMEONE MADE ME WAIT FOR AN HOUR. AND THE OTHER MADE ME WAIT FOR 2 HOURS!

gosh and hafiz was like "abeh marah..senyum ah skit. kau senyum manis ah"

obviously that didn't console me.

so he treat me to swensens. hah. cos somebody's~ pay just went *boom!* last month..im so freaking jealous..

still..like hatta said. so worth the waiting..

miss climbing already~

2007-01-06T06:06:00.000-08:00

so not my day

went out with yue ting today..and i tink im cursed! because i had a super bad day today..

was suppose to be meeting her at hougang mall at 2 to eat. but i was late..and this time, i swear it wasn't my fault. i woke up quite late la cos was very tired after ytd's events. but still got enough time to do some hsework before getting ready to go out. i swear i would be on time, or at least only 5 mins late, if my contact lens didn't screw up..i had to took it out because my right eye was starting to swell. and its been only 3 weeks. arghh.

we wanted to eat at ljs but when we got there, it was a full hse. so we reluctantly went to eat at kfc. aft that we walked ard for a while at hougang mall.

then i went to check my pay at the atm. and guess what..it wasn't in yet!! damn my whole day was ruined because of this. stupid delifrance. seriously qutting this job once i got a new one.

then we finally went to ochard. yue ting was gg to lend me some money and i promised to pay her back when i got my damn pay. i was cursing delifrance for the whole journey to ochard..

walked and walked ard ochard and both of us just doesn't seem to find what we were looking for. and even if i did, i cant buy it cos i didn't want to spend so much of her money.

then while we were walking at some point, my sandels suddenly broke! by this time i already had no mood to shop. and i was forced to walk with my broken sandels.

and at some point we got lost and didn't realise we actually walked past the place we were looking for and had to walk all the way back, WITH MY BROKEN SANDELS. stupid stupid stupid..

oyar and i met shikin and hans at far east. *now u noe why i had the long face on?*

and i wun continue to write what happen aft that because it's just plain stupid and i am super tired now. but at least there was fun and laughter thx to the crazy arsehole that was with me.

the rockclimbing comp ytd was ok. but i still tink that sp got the best rockgym. i got 2nd for the comp. it wasn't difficult, its just that i haven't been really training and i have seriously got weaker and i was obviously not at my best. oh well it is just a mock comp and the next comp i'll make sure this doesn't happen.

hakeem got 1st and joel got 2nd for the guys novice. rock on guys..they sure are getting stronger by the day..

allez sprc!

2007-01-04T07:56:00.000-08:00

3 days left

ok. 3 more days till sch starts. and let me see..i've got my a&p chem report to do, 3 more books to read for my reading programme..oth than that, hmm..yup, nth else.

and how many days do i have to do all this? mmm....zero! kosong! habes!

its thurs. im spposed to train with shikin for tml's competition, but we decided not to go. shikin wasn't feeling well and me, i was too lazy to go. and in the end, my manager last minute ask me to work 7-11 cos not enuf staffs. STUPID. at least i got free ice-cream. =))

im pissed off rite now actually. garrhh. found out that my manager put me to work on sat without telling me. AHHH!! i've got plans on dat day dammit. and its my payday. hell, im so not gonna work on that day. thats for sure.

and guess wad. i reached home..and found out no more rice left for me to eat, cos SUMBODY didn't take the initiative to cook it wen he finished it. and hell im not eating maggie anymore. im balding for god's sake. no more aginomoto, nope, no more.

anw im not ready for tml's competition. yup. participating in the mock comp at NUS tml, cos shikin made me. hah. oh well, for fun and laughter. and im sure my new shoes aren't ready for any routes. YUP. i finally bought the damn shoes. and now im flat broke. but hu cares, 2 more days to payday!

anw the shoes is super small. size 4. even smaller den my lil bro's feet, and he's like pri 3 this year. yup, no kidding. i cant even walk with the shoes on. oh well, lets just hope i can climb darn well with them on. and lets hope its stretches fast enuf.

wish me luck..

2007-01-02T07:40:00.000-08:00

woossh! all gone..

2006 is over. here comes 2007..

well its not over yet till im done with this semester..which is like 5 weeks more..

2006 had been a great year. my first year in poly, a bliss it was..made loads of new frens, and sadly losing the contact of my old frens..well all good things must come to an end doesn't it? cos nothing is forever.

still, i just wish that the friendships i share with my frens will last. cos when your frens keep changing, u will find difficulty relying on someone. and i realised that in the past year.

yea it wasn't that difficult making new frens in my first year. but damn was it hard keeping in contact with my sec frens. i had had hated my secondary sch life because of that very group of pple. ruined my 2nd and 3rd year in bowen sec. hated those pple who made my life like hell just because of that one stupid crush i had. didn't tink they realise how hard they had made it for me..well wtheck, what's past is past..

and thx to my 3 bestfrens, the last two years got better. the last year was a bliss with them, syikin, fateha and rimjhim..<3<3

beautiful memories we have had during those times, i would never forget..

i made this one fren in sec one, yue ting. we had our times, good and bad. and till now, i am still in good contact with her, gg out at least every month, baking cookies together when we're free..yeah, it shows that friendship will last if both parties put in effort and treasure it. and the bad times we had only made our friendship stronger. =)

in my first year in poly, i tot i was going to have a hard time making frens. but i proved myself wrong. made quite alot of new frens, but still..it was hard to rely on them. mybe its too early, i have yet to know..

in this past year too, i discovered rockclimbing. and soon after, i found my new passion in life. simply love climbing with frens as leisure. and in rockclimbing too, i realise my limits, and the ability to push myself further, discovering my own capabilities that i never knew i had. but without those pple, i dun find the joy in climbing..esp my climbing partner, shikin <3<3>

i've learnt quite alot in the past year. esp to be independent. times can be hard. but sometimes all it takes is for me to pull myself out of it. treasure ur friends pple!

2006-12-29T10:00:00.000-08:00

ANASAZI!

getting my climbing shoes tml. most probably getting the anasazi velcro, 135 bucks man..haish. but i wun regret buying it. short of 15 bucks tho. i'll try to dig up that sum amt sumwhere. or get hatta to bargain for me.
supposed to have gone n bought it 2dae but thx to hatta, i didn't. hahs, ok i shouldn't blame him..

here is wad we had planned out.i was supposed to wake hatta up at 9am just now, cos he wanted to go to peninsular with me. he wanted to get a haircut and take foto 1st. i was supposed to meet my aunt in the morning. then we were spposed to meet at cityhall at 12. then he have to go off for friday prayers. me, i was spposed to meet shikin in the rockgym at ard 1 or 2.
supposed to..

and this is wad that actually happened.i managed to wake up at 9. called hatta, but he didn't pick up. called n called n called with eyes half open, and he still din pick up. and then i fell asleep. hah. woke up again at 10+ and called hatta again, and this time he picked up.
the 1st thing he said was, "is it 9 o'clock already?" with his stoning voice..
then i was like,"no, its like 10 plus!"
he din even realise the many many missed calls i gave him. gosh. funny..

anw we decided to call off our plans cos we wun have enough time. so i met my aunt at 1 and met shikin at dover at 2.30. and i was like on time sia. was surprised myself..

i climbed like shit today. we blamed the hot choc we dranked from 7 eleven. hah, so no more hot choc for us! nope, no more.
went to tiong bahru with hans, wayne, syu and jinli to eat at burger king at 9. went home aft that.

i passed my level 2!! hah, ok so it wasn't that difficult but me, shikin and hakeem work hard for it sia. even beatrix laughed at how hard we worked.

i want to abseil again!

2006-12-29T08:58:00.000-08:00

where's the holidays man?

i didn't even get to stay at home at all this week. gosh, the last time i stayed at home was last tues..got no one else to blame but me for this. it doesn't even feel like a holiday for god's sake.

was working on mon. got home straight aft that because i didn't want to be late for level 2 course the next day. neede enough sleep.

went to sch at 10am for the course on tues. it ended at 5pm. planned to climb aft that. and yup i did. at ard 9+ went to clementi with the whole bunch of them. its been so long since i went there with shikin. we bought murtabak and shared, me and shikin..hah and we had an argument abt onions. me, shikin, hans, and hakeem. stupid argument but funny. hahs. for fun n laughter.

oh just for the record, i hate onions!

was supposed to have level 2 asessment on weds but beatrix postponed it to thurs. and it clashed with my work day. but she promised it will end early. so i thought i could rest at home on weds, but no..had to helped my mom with her hi tea. woke up at 12 and helped to make 200 pieces of sandwiches. back aching like shit sia. went to the sch to set up the table and prepare the food and dadadada..it all ended at ard 7. finally got home aft that. then went online and revised and discussed abt the level 2 with shikin n hakeem until 2.30am. and what a coincidence that all of us din get to sleep that nite. i slept at 4am that nite, or should i say morning?

met them at 9am on thurs at dover. had mac breakfast b4 the assessment. the assessment wasn't that difficult aft all. it was fun actually. it was supposed to finish at 5, but we finished at 1 which was supposed to be our lunch break. hah. and i passed my theory test!
slept for a while aft that and climbed till 3 and went off to work. i had to dragged myself to work that day. so so tired. aft work lepak with fiz and amir again. they made me. oh btw for those hu don't know, lepak is just hanging out, chatting n do nth else. yar.

my mom told me that my relatives at muar was affected by the flood. seriously pity them. heard dey cant even see the rooftop of their hse anymore. the flood was due to the overflowing river nearby. and the horror was that the river is actually the habitat of many crocodiles. gosh luckily they managed to move out soon enough. but not early enough to save their belongings tho. hopefully they're safe and sound sumwhere else. god help them..

2006-12-27T06:34:00.000-08:00

how stupid can i be?

to believe all the things u said to me
the things u make believe

i don't know what to believe anymore

if only i could live in a world of my own, not caring abt anything else.
but i can't.

u owe me then, and now u owe me big. so leave me now, let me pull myself out of this shit.

2006-12-22T11:23:00.000-08:00

fugly fingers

climbed again 2dae. haish, gotta train, gotta train..climbing rocks! actually, bouldering rocks!

ok for those hu dun noe, bouldering is climbing short walls, without ropes, safety and all. climb, reach the top, jump down on the crashmats. yea..rocks!

good training today. nice routes, great support. yup, power la..simply love climbing wif hatta esp, he rocks!

ok, not enough sleep, notice the crap starting to come out? everything rocks at this time..yup.

anw yar climbed alot 2dae, all the rabak routes..until dun feel like gg home. i skipped dinner with them at clementi cos meeting hafiz and amir at hougang. met them at delifrance aft dey did closing, and got free food and drinks, hahs. takin advantage ah.

then went to lepak with them. made them lepak near my hse so that i dun need to walk so much, hee..pity hafiz tho, he haf to walk all the way home cos by the time no more bus.

went home at 2 cos i thought my mom will be reaching home soon. didn't wan any naggings man. and well guess wad, its 4 in the morning, and my parents are still not back yet..

tired, sleepy, and my fingers hurting like f. climbed too much. no choice, competitions coming soon..gotta work out my time man. garrh. no more motivation to study tho..need syikin, teha and jhim, my motivators..
well used to be..miss them many many!

2006-12-21T09:55:00.000-08:00

with eyes half open

wee~had a chalet ytd. was it ytd? yes it was..it seems so long ago tho, mybe cos i had had a long long day, with only 3 hrs of sleep since ytd morning. and gosh its already 2am and im babysitting my bro's fren's daughter. i tink i'll be the one to knock off 1st than this hyper child.

ok abt the chalet..it was sppose to be 3 days 2 nites at downtown east, a super boring place. no wonder it was so easy to book.
but we thorn for a day only. it was better than last time tho, even when the adults conquered all the beds. we ended up gg to pasir ris park at 3 in the morning, sat and chat, wen it started raining. suey sia, whole day never rain, it just haf to rain at that particular moment. ishk. so we walk in the rain, until we reach some HDB blocks and we just lepak and play cards at the block deck until 5+

went back to the chalet aft that to get our stuffs and went to eat at mac. then me, faeza and amir went home together. hafiz wanted to stay cos he wanted to go strait to his workplace. but he ended up not gg to work, that lazy arsehole.

reach home at 8 and slept for a while. woke up ard 12 to go to sch to climb. ok so i was planning to climb aft 5, wanted to sleep all i want. but hans told me shikin keep saying it was boring climbing without me, so decided to climb with her b4 she went off to work at 6, since she's my only inspiration to climb. so yar, reached sch at 2 and climbed till 9. ok so mybe i slack alot 2dae, but seriously tired sia.

me, amir and hafiz planned to meet back at downtown cos the adults all gg hm and there wun be anyone dere i tink. so we decided to bring some dvds and watched it dere or sumting, but in the end too tired to go back. and they ended up lepak'ing outside punggol pk. hahs, sorrie guys..

me, i went clementi to mkn with bert, hans, joel, hatta, meng, etc aft climbing..reached hm at 12+. half dead, and still haf to babysit this lil gerl. garrhh. *she's super cute tho*

ok planned to mit hatta tml, helping him to practice his insurance thingy. then watching happy feet in the gym with them. and mybe climb. my parents gg malacca tml so ken come hm late two days in a row without naggings. wee~

gg out with yue ting this sat. gg off to malacca on sun. 1st week, GONE.

study nura, study!

2006-12-17T07:28:00.000-08:00

need an organiser

seriously.

2006-12-16T03:52:00.000-08:00

finally, holidays' here..

what oth beta way to start the hols than to just take time to relax. no work, no play, just the bed, tv, food and me.. was expected to go do community service today but me and van skipped it since we don't noe what time to report..i noe, stupid excuse. wtheck

finally got some time to clean my rm, and that took half a day. fooo..at least now i can see my table again. oth pple have cupboard or drawers to keep their books and stuffs, but nura lay them ALL on her table.. *note to self: keep table clear*

got a feeling this hols will pass by fast, jus like all the oth holidays. so gotta make myself plan my time properly this time, since there's just so much to do.
*note to self: studies 1st, climbing last*

gotta plan an outing for my class. and no bbq this time. they suggested pot luck. well, i dun mind actually..i can just share with hayati, and i'll bring enough to let them try my mom's cooking. hee..k anw was tinking of just a simple picnic, ball games, soccer, whatever..swimming, eating, snacking..yar, simple but something we all can do together..hopefully that will do.

jus rmbred. abt my previous post, the girl who fell..she didn't dislocate her ankle, she BROKE it. which is so much worst..yar, ouch! heard they had to put in 12 bolts to fix it.

2006-12-12T07:23:00.000-08:00

overrated, no?

all it takes is just a simple birthday wish

i guess u cant even afford that

2006-12-09T02:57:00.000-08:00

OH the TRAUMA..

din go for any lessons on fri..needed a break, since im fully booked for the weekends, with level one, work, and reports to do..was trying to finish my bsbm report, but fayyadh says greg poi is nice, and he wun scold u if u hand in aft the weekends. so i decided to slowly finish it up during the weekends

climbed with bert and meng on fri. hatta came to join us ard 8..been such a long time since i climbed with him. such fun..the guy got a new job at great eastern, so happy for him..i rmbred telling him, "Hatta, 26 yrs old ready, time to get married man" and his rply will always be,"wait la, haven even find a stable job"

finally, he got one. so pple, if u want to buy any insurance or need any insurance advice, u can approach hatta kay.

aniway..was climbing SO happily till 9+..they planned to go clementi to mkn at 10. so by 9.45 i've already changed and was watching with shikin, a few climbers, from i dono where, climbing..

was watching this one particular gal climbing at one point. tink she jus started climbing, but she's good, managed to finish the route we were watching her climb from behind. she was already at the last tile, a jug, when she suddenly SLIPPED AND FELL FACE FIRST! ouch. tot she was ok, but the minute she turn ard, she started screaming..the guys ard her was already attending to her. at that moment i was like wondering what happen, then i saw her ankle, HER DISLOCATED ANKLE! her feet was like 70 degrees to her leg! i was like speechless, looked at shikin, shikin looked at me..was curious so i took a look at her leg again, regretted making that move. now the traumatizing picture is still in my head..i told shikin to stop looking, then saw tears in her eyes. she said,"now im never gg to climb the 45 degrees wall again.."

they carried her to thevan and brought her to the nearest hospital i tink..hopefully she's fine by now. but most probably she wud be too traumatized to climb ever again. she din even get to feel the pleasure of climbing, such pity..

took the whole nite to recover from the trauma myself, thx to bert and his super lame jokes..but that picture of her dislocated ankle, have to shake the feeling off every time that picture come to my mind. even now..

as shikin says,

ITS NOT FOR THE WEAK HEARTED

why must she fall right in front of my face? why must she even fall??

now i noe how risky rockclimbing is

Im going to be blind..

2006-12-04T05:45:00.000-08:00

my right eye was swollen since ytd..dono what happen, vanessa says my tear gland is infected. =/

im gg blind!

haha, k mybe not..but i cant live w/o my contacts. hate wearing my specs, so big, it jus keep sloping down my nose. so irritating..so stop asking me to wear my specs! phm phm je ah

anw went make-up and accesories shopping wit yati jus now for this weds event. so happy for her and van, they're getting married for god's sake! ahahahk..made her buy this beautiful small hair pin for 9 bucks..its so nice la

so many tings to do 2dae..and its already 10! garrh

got over him. finally.

IM IN THE CHRISTMAS SPIRIT OHRITE =X

2006-12-02T04:15:00.000-08:00

work was rabak 2dae..delifrance kalo tak bzy boring nak mampos, tapi kalo bzy leh pengsan seh..but it was fun la. got to work with all the gerek2 pple..now i know why i use to love my job. and i found out they took in like ard 7 new staffs since the last time i worked..was i gone that long??

oyar they made us wear these christmas hats, dono wad its called..damn funny la, we took like 5 mins to wear it, hahs..and kak lisa says i look like an elf.

i shall take that as a compliment. =D

next week's gonna be a bzy week again, but this time with sch werk. loads of reports to hand in and presentations to prepare. and promised pie to help her out nex sat aft my level one course..haih, so nice of me, hahs..

however bzy i may be, i will always try my best to help out those hu need me. =)

anw watched king arthur 2dae. love it, esp the battling part and the storyline itself..simply love those kinda movies.

2006-11-30T06:05:00.000-08:00

finally..got sum time to spare and jus slack. been needing it for so long, seriously..

anw jus realise sumting weird 2dae..y issit that im never on time for the 1st lesson every morning but im on time when im working till late the nite b4?? no kidding man..its like im always at least 5mins, at most 40mins late every morning but was surprisingly early for my lessons for the pass few days. weird huh..

guess i jus learnt how to discipline myself. =D

oh oh CRS was nice 2dae..esp on the homosexual topic, hot topic sia, got so much to say but din have the chance to..but i still agree with their stand tho..

anw went to rockgym aft that, got sumtime to jus slack and play cards. then realise i din eat proper food 2dae. ate some curry puffs and jama hayati's maggie mee abit, and thats all. everyone's broke at this time of the month. oyar then got asri to treat me kitkat at 7 eleven, hee..been such a long time since i ate chocs..he ended up buying so much chocs till he cant finish..hahs, and gave me the whole pack of ferrero rocher to bring home..heex..thx asri!

time jus flies even when u try to take it slow..ticktockticktock and it was already 8, left the gym ard that time, slept all the way from outram to buangkok..so so tired..haishh

cant wait for tml! finally climbing with shikin aft like 1 week++..miss her man, miss climbing too..from 4 days climbing per week, to 3 days, to 1 day...

discipline.

or mybe jus to busy..

How i wish..

2006-11-25T04:27:00.000-08:00

ouhkay.

no more gg out during weekends. sobs.

what's even worse is that i can't even climb for the whole of next week. gosh, how i wish there is an easier way to earn money.

i'm offically flat broke now. it kinda tells when u have to ask for money from ur own parents. well for me at least, it does...this means i got to work. and work my ass off too..cos i realise my bill won't pay off by itself..garrhh. how i wish money would just come out from the tap.

next week will be like hell for me. ok mybe not, cos hell is so much worse. aniwaes, its gonna be sch, work and no play. even lesser time to rest. this means i have to finish all my reports and what not by tml..

hopefully i will have enough money to pay off my bill and go for christmas shopping by next month, not that i celebrate xmas or aniting(just for the sale..)

but fat hope is all that i have tho. i doubt there will be any money to spare. u will too when u see my bill..

how i wish i can live without my hp.

how i wish...

gotta study, gotta study!

2006-11-23T03:50:00.000-08:00

finally got a blog.

now time to post..

been busy lately, realise i never get to meet up with my frens..esp nadia (sorrie babe..)

okay so u say, "wth nura, then don't climb so much la"

well first of all, climbing(esp bouldering) is addictive. the wall just calls up to me every time im in the rockgym.
secondly, i don't want to stop training..i don't want to deprove.

but unfortunately, climbing HAVE been affecting my studies and things at home(no surprises)
yes pple, i realise bouldering 4 out of 5 days is alot.
and i am trying to cut down on it.
im seriously trying.

and guess what?
yea, i bouldered only twice this week. ok make it thrice, since im climbing tml..
and NURA's been gg home early this days.
yup, 7pm IS early ok.

still..i seriously need to put in more effort in my sch work.

this smart girl have not even start on her bsbm report that is due tml.
but luckily for her, her lecturer is kind enough to extend the deadline. phew.
or else, no sleep for her tonite.

need to bring the brainy back..

STUDY NURA, STUDY!